resting thankfully in busyness

So life is crazy busy at the moment... and there isn't really anything I can do about it, except to look towards heaven. But the good news is, that when I look up to my glorious Helper, I find the thankfulness needed to see that He is accomplishing great things in the midst of it.

Busyness may very well be the thing that makes me most stressed out. Isn't it funny how we often just need stretched in those areas where it is particularly difficult and inconvenient for us to be tried? If we are allowed to stay in our comfort zone (which for me is restful and home-centered), then we won't likely grow as well.

On the flip side, learning to rest has been quite the challenge as well. In this moment of clarity, I realize and recognize how much of a miraculous thing it is that I can say that rest is much more natural to me than busyness (though I am learning that the two are not neccessarily antonyms). Glory to God for that! I had to LEARN how to rest, and it seems that He has done a great work in that regard.

I still think that rest is the higher road, but what I am learning is that rest is not always based on life circumstances (though I do feel tremendously sorry for folks who have made it terribly hard on themselves by chosing not to "lead a quiet life"). So I am learning to rest in the midst of chaos. I am also learning to thank God for my "manna", by recognizing circumstances as things ordained by God to perfect our souls. I am learning to see the blessings that would not exists were my circumstances any different. I am learning to sneak away, like Jesus did, even when I have to be more intentional in making the time. I am learning not to allow myself to feel "pressured" by the demands on me.

Not that I have mastered any of these things, otherwise I may not still be in this trial, but I am glad to be learning these things and glad to have the assurance that He is walking with me and leading me in the midst of all things.

What I am VERY thankful for is that I am observing the ways that God has and is changing me... and that He loves me enough to allow me to struggle through this, that in the end He may lead me to a more abundant place in Him. I am overwhelmed with gratitude as I see the ways that He has transformed me in the past many years, in order that trials would not seem surface-level anymore, but rather that they are rich opportunities for God to draw us into a deeper understanding of Him, as well as to be perfect us in the soul. May His name be forever praised!

Thankfully,
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